*jay p says:
hey
Me:
yo
Me:
'zup
*jay p says:
tmr eng lit?
Me:
fo'shizzle
Me:
lol
*jay p says:
wtf
Me:
yea
Me:
idk why i just did that
*jay p says:
k
*jay p says:
sms mrs lee?
Me:
me?
*jay p says:
me?
Me:
is this supposed to be funny?
Me:
ok... me?
*jay p says:
yeah you
Me:
ok me
Me:
do re mi
Me:
yea!
*jay p says:
n u going to the central library after tat?
Me:
how did u know?
*jay p says:
there's a note on facebook? by kumar?
Me:
o is there?
Me:
i see
Me:
u wanna come?
*jay p says:
yeah
*jay p says:
i need to be around studying ppl
Me:
sure we can hang out after
Me:
lol
Friday, March 20, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Let it Grow - Eric Clapton
Me: I just listened to this song for what must the thousandth time ever. It's an amazing song. Especially the guitar. I would give alot to play like that.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
The World
Why am I forced to live in a world populated by such idiots? They don't understand what matters, they have no concept of principle. they conform and force people to conform. Like savage, blood-crazed sheep, armed with not dagger and sword, but with their collective minds and stupidity.
They gag down every random bit of information and pass it off as wisdom. They gag, choke, and force it down their stomachs. Why do they never vomit? They're full of shit and they don't know it. Why don't they vomit and see what's in them? Why do they not understand beauty? Why do they not know and pursuit beauty? Why do they knowingly destroy and belittle that which is wonderful?
Oh god, I hate humans. I'm not even sure if I can feel hate. I can't feel much anymore. It's an emptiness I feel inside me, and if it's this emptiness that lets me think clearly, let me keep it. I want to kill someone. I want to know whether taking the life of rubbish is sinful. Would the sin weigh upon my soul? How would it feel to take away the life of a breathing human? Why a human? Are humans any different from animals? Probably, they are far more disgusting. What other animal would sacrifice nearly everything they have in the pursuit of sex? Sex is disgusting, undignified. Religion is fanaticism, politics is backstabbing. Our world is a crazy mass of lying, cheating, and fear.
I dont want to kill myself. But what else is there? in this world? shall i kill someone else? would that be wrong? i dont know. all i know is that i need something to make me feel whole. i'm going crazy. empty empty empty.
so empty. i vomit, but i bring up nothing but bile and acid. i gag and choke on my own hypocrisy. i cry, and tears slide down the mask i wear. nothing i do is real. i dont tell the truth to myself, to my family. people look at me and they see a happy person. i smile, i laugh. but all i want to do is run away. let me be alone. forever and ever. in the cold.
They gag down every random bit of information and pass it off as wisdom. They gag, choke, and force it down their stomachs. Why do they never vomit? They're full of shit and they don't know it. Why don't they vomit and see what's in them? Why do they not understand beauty? Why do they not know and pursuit beauty? Why do they knowingly destroy and belittle that which is wonderful?
Oh god, I hate humans. I'm not even sure if I can feel hate. I can't feel much anymore. It's an emptiness I feel inside me, and if it's this emptiness that lets me think clearly, let me keep it. I want to kill someone. I want to know whether taking the life of rubbish is sinful. Would the sin weigh upon my soul? How would it feel to take away the life of a breathing human? Why a human? Are humans any different from animals? Probably, they are far more disgusting. What other animal would sacrifice nearly everything they have in the pursuit of sex? Sex is disgusting, undignified. Religion is fanaticism, politics is backstabbing. Our world is a crazy mass of lying, cheating, and fear.
I dont want to kill myself. But what else is there? in this world? shall i kill someone else? would that be wrong? i dont know. all i know is that i need something to make me feel whole. i'm going crazy. empty empty empty.
so empty. i vomit, but i bring up nothing but bile and acid. i gag and choke on my own hypocrisy. i cry, and tears slide down the mask i wear. nothing i do is real. i dont tell the truth to myself, to my family. people look at me and they see a happy person. i smile, i laugh. but all i want to do is run away. let me be alone. forever and ever. in the cold.
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